'cause no matter what you'll never be alone

Two in one day! I just got an idea for this one and I'm behind anyway so I decided to roll with it. This is going to be another one of my more unusual stories. I tried to focus on showing, rather than telling. So... it's a little more on the abstract side.

Also since I'm out of whack I'm ditching the days.

( #5: Prompt Chosen: Is it You? )

A little late - I had a lot of homework and projects on different subjects and Naminé's Luceti app to finish up and turn in.

Today's story is probably going to be one of my more unusual ones. It includes some of my theories on and behind certain events in the KH3D Special Trailer. If you haven't seen the special trailer and don't want to be spoiled for it, then you should consider skipping this story. They aren't blatant but they're there. There also might be stealth spoilers for re:coded.

( Day 3 - Prompt Chosen: Sky Blue )

In celebration and anticipation for the upcoming KH3D release, I will be doing the 30_memories writing challenge, one for each day up until the Japanese KH3D release. No pairings, though all will be Xion-centric (and as such will all have HUGE SPOILERS for Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days) because that's just how I roll. Besides, this particular challenge is way too fitting for her.

I should probably get a writing account or comm at some point... oh well.

Not sure if I'll get one up today. If I do, I'll edit this post. |D

Back to your regularly scheduled lives, fellow passengers of Spaceship Earth.

EDIT: Done.

( Day 1 - Prompt chosen: Tears )

Sometimes I get what I call a fic "fragment". Essentially, it's a short flash of a scene - an action, a bit of dialogue - but not much else. Sometimes I'll have the time to expand on a fragment into a full-on onehsot (Sacrifices started out as a fragment), other times I don't, and it'll just become a little ficlet.

This one is of the latter variety, inspired by the trailer yesterday.

( Spoilers for Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days, and stealth spoilers for some of the others. )

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May eventually do something with it, though probably not much more than an extension of the current conversation.

So, for those of you who remember my angsty Abyss AU plotbunny named Instability, I've started working on it again. It's hard because trying to rewrite canon events involves finding the motives and actions and figuring out when they got which information... it requires a lot of canon knowledge, and while I'm not too bad I'm sketchy on some of the canon details in the middle of the game, and I can't canon review because my PS2 is at home, and even on the 14th I'll still need to actually get a 3DS... So it's been slow going, though I am still making progress. I've been toying around a lot of ideas, including Asch reluctantly taking Luke's place in the main party (mainly because Luke hasn't been learning how to control his hyperresonance like he does in canon) while Luke breaks off, probably with Guy in tow. Though this involves Luke eventually trusting Guy again so it'd take a while to eventually happen.

I have figured out some new details though, and got some inspiration for a later excerpt, mainly around Tower of Rem and its aftermath.

( Cut for rambling plust Tower of Rem spoilers )

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( Cut for aaaaaangst )

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ftr, this is still in the process of being written and I will be adding to it.

For those of you who don't know, I'm now moved over to Dreamwidth, and will be staying that way except for my roleplays that don't move and a handful of musebox threads. The customer service and overall respect that the LJ staff has shown their userbase is just appalling. Even if the comment pages are returned to the old style (Which it has already been confirmed will not be happening, at least not completely), the real root of the problem is the deplorable customer service, and I see little being done about that. Yes, we do have some much nicer people at the more local level, but if the people in power don't give a shit about their userbase, the most they're able to offer is words and tiny fixes, which, while nice of them and I'm appreciative of the effort, is not enough to win back my patronage.

Some people might tell me to wait, that I'm moving too hastily. Frankly, I'm a little frustrated that people would consider my decisions any less valid just because they're made a mere two days after the fact. Just because a decision is triggered by strong emotions does not automatically make that decision hasty and irrational.

Frankly, in some ways you need the strong emotional reaction to do things that need to be done. The real life equivalent I want to compare the current situation at Livejournal to... I'm not going to, because I'm worried I'll be accused of comparing apples to oranges over a very serious matter. So I'll compare it to something else a little less touchy: my current situation with my roommates.

For those of you who don't know or follow me on plurk regularly, I currently live in an apartment with three other people at my college. At first, things were fine, but lately, there have been more and more instances of severe lifestyle differences and irresponsible behavior/lack of respecting boundaries on the part of my roommates. I have difficulty speaking up normally, owing to my tendency to devalue my own opinions and my shyness and dislike of confrontation. As such, the current problems include but are not limited to: my roommate chewing me out for leaving out dirty dishes (because I'd been distracted while emptying the dishwasher so I could put them in there) while the roommate chewing me out has left food out multiple times while going to spend the night at her boyfriend's, overall leaving out food in the pots and pans on the stove rather than storing them in the fridge or whatnot (and when I brought up the above issues and overall cleanliness in the kitchen, I was told to "take the initiative" a.k.a. clean up their messes for them), at least one instance of my roommate entering my private bedroom area without my prior knowledge or consent, and an item I let my roommates borrow being removed from the apartment and taken elsewhere without my knowledge or permission.

Then there's the mice.

To explain, my roommate brought home two mice, breaking about five different rules:

1. We are not allowed pets other than fish in our apartment building
   
2. The only approved pets in the apartments period are cats, dogs and fish
   
3. In order to obtain a pet, you must go to the apartment office and sign a special form
   
4. Part of the above mentioned form involves obtaining written permission of all your roommates. Neither I nor at least one of my other roommates' permission was obtained prior to getting the mice
   
5. To have a pet, you have to pay a 100 dollar down payment for possible damages.

I should have complained from the start, but I liked the mice, and I was worried I was complaining too much or making too big a deal out of it. Overall things were okay for a while, except for the fact that my roommates used a cardboard box as a playpen. Both mice have gotten out, one of them has never been found. My roommate - the one who bought the mice - left for Christmas break without making any provisions for someone to care for the mouse, or even refilling the remaining mouse's food, or cleaning her glass cage, so I had to do so the other day to make sure that the mouse didn't starve and we didn't come home to a stinky apartment, since our Christmas break is nearly a month.

So. What does this all have to do with LJ? I caught the mouse the second time it escaped. During that emotional extreme, I decided that it was best for me to move out. As I waited and calmed down, however, I began to undervalue my decision, and ultimately set myself up for further frustration and fighting with my roommates. I've had further instances that are helping me to reaffirm my decision, but the point is: sometimes you NEED an emotional extreme to get out of a bad situation.

If people want to stay, that's fine. I respect that, and you all need to make whatever decision is best for you. For me, this is the best decision.

Would like to have a better finisher, but I gotta run. See you all and have Happy Holidays!

Hi! I know I added at least one person on the Luceti friending meme, so figured I'd say hi and welcome to my LJ. I do use it sometimes, more to post writings and general updates and long rambling thoughts when I don't feel like dealing with ridiculously small letter limits.

Anyway hi again! I am Gorse, a.k.a. Kristen. I am a college sophomore trying to get a major in animation so I can go make movies and the like. Major fandom at the moment is Tales of the Abyss, so I'll probably end up talking about it a lot on here, though I do like other things, like Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, Harvest Moon, Disney/Pixar, Golden Sun, Mana Khemia, Tamora Pierce and etc. I currently roleplay at three games - luceti, paradisa, and riftedguilds, the latter of which I help mod. And... that should do for Gorsie CliffNotes. HI and welcome again!

Anyway. Onto the other part of this journal entry: So I had an Abyss AU plotbunny a couple weeks ago, which has tentatively been named Instability. The idea is fairly simple: After Akzeriuth, the party is lucky as hell that Luke didn't have severe, severe trust issues - the person he trusted most in the world utterly betrayed him, and most of the others were hiding/keeping secrets that in theory could have possibly helped prevent it from happening (i.e. Luke being a replica). So what if he had those issues? How would that have affected the character relationships, party dynamic, and progression of events?

The inspiration for this idea has been very hit-or-miss since it's started, so I'm probably not going to actively pursue making it into a fully-fledged story with full continuity, unless something changes, but here's all the excerpts that I've written so far:

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( The first major divergence )

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( Continuity Changes + Unexpected Reunions )

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( Peony is an awesome emporer )

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And that's it for now!

Oh. My. God. I am like legit excited and terrified and excited and-

So um.

riftedguilds reserves open up tomorrow. So if you love Pokemon Mystery Dungeon and wanted to see it as a panfandom, well, tomorrow is your lucky day. All of our lucky days. Applications open up on the 1st (I will need to have Noelle's Luceti app done by then because the last thing I want to do is to have to worry about looking over apps and completing my own at the same time) and then... well I'm not sure when the game will open but IT WILL BE SOON AFTER THAT.

I am like... legit excited right now. Spazzing, hyper, you name it. I have tried to start up a game once before. As a matter of fact I even went and dug it up and it somehow still exists despite the fact that the "rebirth" (Which made me raise my eyebrows, I don't remember if I approved a remake of my game/idea or not...) is dead and deleted. It flopped dramatically due to lack of real interest and the fact that my co-admin had a very short attention span and a bit of a temper when I called her out on this. But not so this time. Ran and Holo have been a joy to work with and I can see we're going to have a lot of fun in the future.

At the same time I'm kind of legit terrified and feeling like "Oh Gooood what am I getting myself into" because modding is a big thing and... I dunno. This might just be a small niche game, but at the same time I feel like I've got something here that has the potential to explode into something huge. And all the potential drama and whatnot that implies. I mean, just following Luceti on anoncomm, it's easy to see how such a large playerbase has fairly polarized opinions, with what pleases one person upsetting another. I know it's inevitable, and yet... that stuff happening worries me. I'm also worried about other things - things like will I do a good job and old drama catching up with me... Then again I am Gorse and Gorses by nature worry about all the things.

I just... I hope this works out well. I really do.

ANYWAY GET YOUR RESERVES IN AND LET'S GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD.