gorsecloud: (Flit - PROUD MOMENT)
Oh. My. God. I am like legit excited and terrified and excited and-

So um.

[livejournal.com profile] riftedguilds reserves open up tomorrow. So if you love Pokemon Mystery Dungeon and wanted to see it as a panfandom, well, tomorrow is your lucky day. All of our lucky days. Applications open up on the 1st (I will need to have Noelle's Luceti app done by then because the last thing I want to do is to have to worry about looking over apps and completing my own at the same time) and then... well I'm not sure when the game will open but IT WILL BE SOON AFTER THAT.

I am like... legit excited right now. Spazzing, hyper, you name it. I have tried to start up a game once before. As a matter of fact I even went and dug it up and it somehow still exists despite the fact that the "rebirth" (Which made me raise my eyebrows, I don't remember if I approved a remake of my game/idea or not...) is dead and deleted. It flopped dramatically due to lack of real interest and the fact that my co-admin had a very short attention span and a bit of a temper when I called her out on this. But not so this time. Ran and Holo have been a joy to work with and I can see we're going to have a lot of fun in the future.

At the same time I'm kind of legit terrified and feeling like "Oh Gooood what am I getting myself into" because modding is a big thing and... I dunno. This might just be a small niche game, but at the same time I feel like I've got something here that has the potential to explode into something huge. And all the potential drama and whatnot that implies. I mean, just following Luceti on anoncomm, it's easy to see how such a large playerbase has fairly polarized opinions, with what pleases one person upsetting another. I know it's inevitable, and yet... that stuff happening worries me. I'm also worried about other things - things like will I do a good job and old drama catching up with me... Then again I am Gorse and Gorses by nature worry about all the things.

I just... I hope this works out well. I really do.

ANYWAY GET YOUR RESERVES IN AND LET'S GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD.
gorsecloud: (Awkward Gorse is awkward)

You know, it kind of bothers me that any day I take my ADHD meds, I almost invariably am up until 6 am (this stuff is supposed to be short acting). And almost invariably, it's on one of my days with the 9 am class. And of course today, I can't exactly go to class then come back to my apartment and sleep until 4 pm either, because my mom is coming to pick me up for the homecoming game. Should be fun - will hopefully see some old high school buddies of mine. Maybe I'll even get to play some Abyss while I'm at home. I've kind of been wanting to canon review but I don't have many anime episodes with sh!Luke.

In other news the PMD game, [livejournal.com profile] riftedguilds is chugging along. Hoping to have it up and ready to open in... a couple weeks tops. I'm apping Luke there (and no one was surprised), and am looking forward to working with Ran and Holo on this thing. I just hope I'm not getting in over my head because hahhhh running a game is serious crap, you know? I really need to avoid the rpanoncomm more. It's so paranoia-inducing and I really freak the hell out over things enough (just ask Saffy) without adding to that, and yet at the same time I'd rather learn from others mistakes than make them myself.  I also worry about being able to run it and being able to keep up with my current games - [livejournal.com profile] luceti and [livejournal.com profile] paradisa. I'm never gonna have an impressive muselist, I think... and tbh I think I'm okay with that.

I am also beginning to wonder if I've always had my blinders on for politics or if this crap really is as insane as it looks like it is - Topeka's game of chicken with its own county governments, the whole "Personhood" movement in Mississippi, the anti-Abortion law in Congress... Am I the only one who sees this as the government playing games with people's lives and livelihoods? Because it's not funny anymore. It never really was funny, but when someone guilty of assault gets to walk right back out of prison to go beat their victim even more for having the gall to tell on them, all because the city and county governments are having a tiff over who wants to pay for it? When a woman has to be afraid of criminal investigation because of a natural miscarriage, or is afraid her life-saving abortion will be denied just because some person has set the rules that way to fit their own ideology?

Good lord, I hate politics.

Okay, now that you've followed my meandering train of thought everywhere. I think I'm done. ... I think. If not I'll come edit or something idk. Also, Saffy and Kukki are my not!moms, and awesome not!moms they are. Also Cherry is either my sibling or my original. Just thought everyone should know that.

Okay going to attempt to pass the hell out and get some sleep before class.

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